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#MeToo campaign triggers horrid memories for Miami women

A rape victim says the movement #MeToo is like a punch in the face

Yuleidy González-Nieto, a victim of abuse since childhood, says she is glad that a lot of people have come forward with #MeToo, but the movement is "like getting punched in the face." “It’s just always there and it makes it harder to hide from it,
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Yuleidy González-Nieto, a victim of abuse since childhood, says she is glad that a lot of people have come forward with #MeToo, but the movement is "like getting punched in the face." “It’s just always there and it makes it harder to hide from it,

In an old warehouse-turned-office in northwestern Miami, a powerful but painful conversation by a group of women began.

Sitting on metal folding chairs around an improvised altar covered with a yellow sheet and a lit candle at its center, 16 women shared their intimate stories of sexual harassment and abuse.

They were not wealthy or famous celebrities like Angelina Jolie, Taylor Swift or Salma Hayek. Their accused abusers were not powerful men like Harvey Weinstein. Those present at this gathering were everyday Miami women, minorities and immigrants. They clean hotels and homes. They serve as nannies and waitresses. They help care for the sick and the elderly.

What brought them together was the national debate sparked by the #MeToo campaign. The millions of testimonies about sexual harassment and abuse that flooded social and mainstream media have made them recall their own traumatic experiences, an issue that Golden Globe honoree Oprah Winfrey brought to the forefront again during a speech earlier this week.

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“It’s not just a story affecting the entertainment industry. It’s one that transcends any culture, geography, race, religion, politics or workplace,” Winfrey said in a nationally televised speech on Sunday. “ They’re the women whose names we’ll never know. They are domestic workers and farm workers. They are working in factories and they work in restaurants and they’re in academia, engineering, medicine and science. They’re part of the world of tech and politics and business. They’re our athletes in the Olympics and they’re our soldiers in the military.”

At the Miami Women’s Circle, the next two hours were spent talking about abusive events: There was the story about the naked hotel guest who tried to pull a maid into his bed and then followed her into the hallway as she ran away. And the housekeeper who complained that a 14-year-old groped her butt only to be told by the mother that he was simply “reaching puberty.”

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Marcia Olivo, director of the Miami Workers Center organized the Women’s Circle to provide a safe place for victims of abuse to share their tales. She, too, is a survivor. Alexia Fodere For el Nuevo Herald

“How many folks in this circle have been sexually harassed?” Jasmen Rogers, moderator of the Women’s Circle, asked during a recent Tuesday meeting.

Fourteen of the 16 women raised their hands.

“How many folks in this circle have been sexually assaulted? Answer only if you feel comfortable sharing that information,” Rogers continued.

This time, 10 women raised their hands.

“How many folks in this circle have felt safe to report it immediately?”

Only one person raised her hand.

The discussion, organized by the nonprofit Miami Workers Center, flowed across several generations. The oldest participant was 79. The youngest was an 8-year-old girl who accompanied her mother.

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Yuleidy González-Nieto, 27, from Cartagena, Colombia emigrated to the United States when she was 10. At that age she was already a survivor of sexual abuse. Alexia Fodere For el Nuevo Herald

Too young for such a gathering? Perhaps. But out of the 10 women who said they were victims of rape, six said they were abused before they were 8 years old.

Reports by the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention indicate that nearly one out of five women have been raped at some point in their lives. The number is even higher within some minority groups, according to the CDC.

Some of the participants asked not be identified by their full names.

‘It is hard to grow up in our bodies’

Before she turned 12, Sonya already had wide hips.

“I am a black woman. This is how we are,” said Sonya, who grew up in a working-class Miami neighborhood. “But it is hard to grow up in our bodies.

“I always walked to school. And ever since I started developing my breasts some men looked at me like I was a piece of meat. They pulled down their zippers and showed me their stuff. They yelled at me from cars.

“I started thinking that I was doing something wrong, that something in me was not right.

“I stopped eating. I became a size 1. I used baggy clothes. My mother noticed it, too, because I no longer went out to play on the front yard.

“Today, when I see my daughter, who is the same age I was then, cross her arms in front of her chest because her breasts are developing, I always go and gently pull her arms away.

“I make sure to tell her that there’s nothing wrong with her body.”

But Sonya remains afraid for her daughter. “What will she have to deal with when she grows up?” she said.

As the women become more open with each other, the tales become more sordid — with episodes of incest and emotional violence.

Powerful men continue to be accused of sexual harassment and assaults, and have been responding by accepting, hedging or dodging the allegations.

‘I don’t remember my childhood’

Yuleidy González-Nieto, 27, is from Cartagena, Colombia. She moved to Miami with her parents and brother when she was 10. Even then, she already was a survivor.

For years, she avoided talking about what had happened to her — until that Tuesday night at the Women’s Circle.

“I don’t even remember how old I was, that’s how young I was when the abuse started,” said González-Nieto, who said she was raped several times in Colombia. “The only thing I remember is that it ended when we moved to Miami.”

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A mother hugs her 8-year-old daughter as she listens to testimonies of sexual abuse by other participants of the Women’s Circle at the Miami Workers Center. Alexia Fodere For el Nuevo Herald

As she spoke, another participant, the mother of the 8-year-old girl, put an arm around her daughter’s shoulder and pulled her closer.

“I don’t remember my childhood,” González-Nieto continued. “It’s strange, how the brain works, but to block out those memories, I wound up blocking almost everything. You know, when people say, ‘When I was 8 years old, when I was 9,’ … I don’t remember any of that.”

On the other side of the circle, Marcia Olivo, director of the Miami Workers Center, nodded.

“It’s very interesting that you say that,” said Olivo, who said she was sexually abused by an uncle when she was a young girl in the Dominican Republic. “I also feel that I don’t remember parts of my childhood during the years that the abuse was going on. Many things were erased from my memory.”

‘Let’s play doctor’

Jasmeen Rogers said she started to recall odd events after listening to and reading many of the #MeToo testimonies.

“I can remember a very, very specific memory from my childhood, when my dad took me to a church member’s house and there was this youth there,” she said. While her father was talking to the church member, Rogers played with the boy.

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Jasmeen Rogers, center, participates in a Women’s Circle gathering at the Miami Workers Center to share tales of abuse as a path toward healing. Alexia Fodere For el Nuevo Herald

“I remember him being significantly older than me; we probably shouldn’t have even been playing together. And I can remember being under a table with him, playing with my toys. And I remember him saying, ‘Let’s play doctor.’ And then, that’s when the memory stops.

“I have no recollection of what happens next. And that memory only reemerged after being in community with so many women that were sharing their stories. And I hear things very similar to the beginning of that story, but I don’t know … I can’t force the memory forward of what happened next.

“Nothing could have happened next, or everything could have happened next. But it’s interesting to me that I can now remember up until that point, up until he says, ‘Let’s play doctor,’ knowing how that story ended for so many other women.”

‘My brother did it’

Unlike Rogers, Vivian Tutt has a clear recollection of her abuser, even though it’s been nearly seven decades.

“From the age of 7, I was physically raped by my brother. He was older than I was,” said the 79-year-old Tutt.

It’s only the third time that she’s ever talked about it.

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(L-R) Júlia Dawson, 76, and Vivian Tutt, 79, take part in the Women’s Circle gathering at the Miami Workers Center. Alexia Fodere For el Nuevo Herald

“My siblings and I shared one room. It was me and my sister sleeping in one bed and him and my other brother slept in the other bed. For the first year I was really confused, but as it happened over and over again I would put myself in another world.

“What is going on down here is what’s going on down here,” she said, using her arms to illustrate what she meant. “But up here I was gone to different places in my head, so that it wouldn’t bother me.

“When I was 10 years old he tried to put it in the front of me and I screamed with pain. When I screamed, my mother came in the room and he told her that I was having a nightmare.

“He would say, ‘If you tell my mom, it could kill her. And if you tell somebody else, I am going to kill you and I will kill them.’ When he said he would kill me, my thought was, ‘Do it! That way I won’t have to deal with what you are doing to me.’

“But one day, when I was about to turn 11, we were in the room and he was having this affair with me. My cousin came down the stairs and she saw him. That was one of the most blessed days of my life. She grabbed him and she threw him on the floor. And she began to beat him. As she beat him, my sister upstairs heard it and she came down and then we all just beat him up.

“I am so glad that my cousin loved me so much.”

‘I am the fruit of a rape’

For some women, sexual abuse can mark life before it even begins.

Milagros Jiménez, 51, began her story with an analogy so pretty that at first, it was difficult to connect it with the cycle of violence.

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Milagros Giménez (L) and Sonya (R) share tales of their own experience with sexual abuse as part of the Women’s Circle gathering at the Miami Workers Center. Alexia Fodere Para el Nuevo Herald

“It’s like a flower that sprouts another flower, and that flower sprouts another flower,” Jiménez said while opening and closing her left hand, as though blooming flowers were spreading.

“I am the fruit of a rape,” she said as the circle fell silent. “And I was also raped.”

“My mother was a maid in the Dominican Republic. My father was the owner of the house where she worked. He abused my mother and I was born from that.

“I think of how much my mother suffered during that time. These days, those stories stir everything inside of me.”

Jiménez comes from a poor family that lived in the countryside. When her mother went to work, a neighbor would come to her house and lock her in a room.

“I was 4, 5, 6 years old. He rubbed his genitals on me. He did not penetrate me, but he used my pelvis. It went on for five years, and I did not dare to tell my mother because he told me that he would kill her if I told her that he made me happy.”

“That’s what he would say to me. ‘Come, I am going to make you happy,’ ” she added. “I felt dirty. I was disgusted. I could not stand any men. I ran from them.”

Jiménez immigrated to the United States, where she has always worked cleaning hotels and homes. As an adult, she has fought off sexual abuse attempts “with tooth and nail.” One attack came from a hotel guest, another by the owner of a home she cleaned.

“Just because you defend yourself doesn’t mean that the abuses stop,” she said. “There’s always someone else who tries.”

Fontainebleau hotel housekeeper Odelie Paret can spend up to four hours getting to work on county buses. Her story is common in the Miami-Dade County hospitality world where high rents in the county have pushed workers farther away from their jobs

‘The women of today and tomorrow’

Before ending the session of the Women’s Circle, Olivo offered some guidance.

“What you heard today will probably trigger some bad memories. You will feel frustrated, you will have nightmares,” she warned. “You have to remember that none of this is your fault. Drink a lot of water and try to sleep well.”

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Vivian Tutt, 79, leads a protest song during a Women’s Circle gathering at the Miami Workers Center. Alexia Fodere For el Nuevo Herald

“But it’s good. It’s a good thing to talk about it. You will see that you will feel better because you spoke out,” said Tutt, the eldest lady in the group. “It’s like a burden that’s lifted off your shoulders. It’s a way of starting to heal, of starting to change things. I never imagined we were so many. We are the women of today and tomorrow.”

Before they left the gathering, Tutt led the group in a protest song:

Solid as a rock/ Rooted like a tree/ We are here/ Standing strong/ In our rightful place

As the other women repeated each phrase in the chorus, their shouts echoed through the old warehouse. Then the 8-year-old girl who had fallen asleep on her mother’s lap began to wake up.

Brenda Medina: 305-376-4652, @BrendaMedinar

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