Interesting timing. I received this question the day after a friend’s funeral — 47, brain cancer, awful — and one of the most powerful observations at the service was that she responded to her diagnosis by not making dramatic changes to her life. She surveyed “all there is,” felt fortunate to have it, and just wanted to live it.
Imagine this bucket list: family, friends, career, hobbies.
It’s possible her “I have it all” and your “Is this all there is?” are essentially the same. Since perspective is so powerful, maybe merely appreciating the mundane is “making the most of it.”
Tweak as you need to, of course: Travelers should travel and givers should give and artists should art (that’s a verb, right?). If mere tweaks don’t produce meaning, then, yes, take these recent deaths as your hint to re-evaluate who you are and what path you want to take. I’m merely suggesting you start by considering that your life is right where you want it — right where your choices took you — and that better lighting is all you need to see its beauty.
Maybe you’ve just grown up a bit.
Please recast what you said here into a warm truth you tell your boyfriend. Either he'll grow with you and toggle comfortably between playful jabs and sincere affection, or he won’t, and you can decide your future based on that — including your own allegiance to snark.